Im looking for a job anykind of a job

Hy guys amahle in durban Pinetown im here because im looking a job im so desperate any kind of a job i can take my family has sufer to much i was working before but my contract got ended so now my younger siblings has suffered because of me im a mom to them and a father please guys i will work hard i promise i need a job even now its December but i didn't even buy a small grocery for them before i dont have anything sometimes I even wish to die so that I wont fill that pain of see my siblings as like i failed them so i will god can send this to someone who willing to take me out to this situation thank you alot for your time